you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe


RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids. I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.

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My Dearest,Most Sweetest Husband, Ramadhan.
My Beautiful Daughter, Nur Alesha Adriana. 23nov06.
My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.



Saturday, August 9, 2008, 12:55 AM

*warning*
This Entry May Be Nonsensical. Not In The Right Mind. Currently Missin Him Too Much(:


Feeling So Sad.
Sad That I Couldn't Support You.
U Will Be There, Standing For So Long That It Seems Like Hours.
Showing Your Pride In Our Country, Your Commitment To Your Temporary Stupid Career.
And I Will Be At Work, Feeling So Near To You.
You Are So Near Yet So Far.

And I'll Be Watchin The Lovely Fireworks, The Amazing Black Knights, All Through The Large Window Pane At My Werkplace.
And My Heart Will Start To Race. Just Like It Did When U Had All Those Previews.
How I Wish I Was There With You.

Im So Hopeless.
I Couldnt Even Support U By Watchin The Bloody Live Show.
Life's So Unfair.

He's Participating Just Once In His Life. ( Eh? Once Jer Eh? Haha )
And I Couldn't Go. I Should Have Tried To Get My Own Bloody Ticket.
How Stupid Can I Be.

Sometimes I Wonder, While His Standing There, Sweating Like Hell...
Did He Think Of Me?
When The Black Knights Did All Those Cool Moves?
Did He Remember How Excited I've Been?

I Know Im Being Ridiculous. Obviously All He Thinks About Is When The Fucken Parade Is Gonna End. Haha. But I Can't Help It.

Does He Think Of Me As Much As I Think Of Him?

How Bout In Camp? Did He Really Missed Me? Or Did He Say All Those Just To Make Me Feel Better? All Those Frequent I Love Yous, I Miss Yous, I Want Yous... Is It All True?
God.........If Only I Could Hear All His Thoughts..Haha..Pathetic.

Sorry Bebs.
Lately, I've Been Feeling Unwanted.
Told Him Not To Go For The Pract But He Won't Listen.
That One Thing, Hurt Me So So Much.
And He's Started It Again. The Friends Thing.
Never Us Two Anymore. If U Noe What I Mean.

He Hardly Ask Me And Kids Out..
Hardly Even Ask Me Out..
Feels Like Ages Since We Enjoyed Time Together. Just The Two Of Us.

I Miss Us.
When We're Apart, He Wants Me Very Much.
But When We're Together. Seems Like Im Not His Top Priority.
i Dun Understand.

Maybe Im Just Paranoid?
Maybe Im Too Selfish To Share Him With Anyone?
Maybe I Just Feel Bored?
I Don't Know.

Whatever It Is.
All The Best For Tomorrow Dear.
We'll Watch The Recap Together Oke.
Im Feel So Bad For Not Being There.
Im So Proud Of Youu, Youu Know That.
I Love You, Yang.