you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe


RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids. I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.

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My Beautiful Daughter, Nur Alesha Adriana. 23nov06.
My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.



Monday, October 13, 2008, 11:10 PM

The last time hunnie texted me was on 9 october, last thursday.
And he told me he's goin outfield till 26th. So we can't contact till then. And he'll be back on 29th or 30th at about 4am in the morning.


I was tryin to stay strong..
Tryin not to think too much of him..
Always telling myself that he'll be fine and there was no need to worry..
So imagine my horror when he suddenly texted me yesterday and told me he found a python right beside him! A PYTHON!! And a TARANTULA !
What The !


So tell me how am i suppose to not worry?
God knows what next he's gonna find?


And after 6 days of not seeing or talking to her papa, my daughter finally said his name...
" Papa? Papa? Plane? " Okay, honestly i cried.. With her innocence and curiosity..Not knowing that at such a young age, her father is seldom with her..To soothe her to sleep, to comfort her when she's hurt, to eat with her, have fun with her, discipline her...I've always been amazed at how he's able to tame her ways, she'll always end up listening..With me, she'll always get her way..And i thought she wouldn't realise as he's always away in camp anyway..But she did..And it of course increased my longing for him despite my efforts to put up a brave front..Acting as if i don't mind..Replying, " ala skejap jer..nanti dia balek kan..raya pon raya laa..sorang pon tak kisah..hehe " when people ask me whether i can cope since its raya and he'll be so far away and unable to communicate much..


My relatives and his are not helping at all..Tak rindu ke? Ish kalau la laki aku yang pegi, bole jadi gila aku 3 minggu lebeh. Lagik Lagik Da Kawin? Raya Plak Tuh! Camne Kau? Enjoy Ah Laki Takda? Haha...They must be dumb. Im in no position to enjoy..And i miss him too much to do anythin behind his back..I never was capable of any betrayal, though i've tried many times..So please.


I can feel the difference..When we are apart during courtship, its different then when we're married..I just can't explain why..LOL.


Okay so, raya has been okay.
Been out only with families from both my side and his, thankfully we had four days to celebrate together before he went off..
So now, only me and both our families, visiting here and there..And of course my kids got loads of duit raya..Mak dia tumpang kaya tak? Ish of course...Hahahahaha..


So far my friends have all been quiet..Heard there was suppose to be a reunion..But then suddenly all went missing..And titi vok asked me along to the blogger's raya outing, that one im not sure yet whether im goin not..maybe not..hehe..da too late aniway kan..So to everyone who's reading, have fun! Enjoy raya!


And To all, sorry nana belom ucap semua.
Memang da lambat tapi takpe, nana ikhlas ni..Hehehe..


Selamat Hari Raya Semua. Maaf Zahir & Batin Yer.
Kalau Pernah Terkasar Ke Tersilap Ke Termaki Ke Tertinggi Suara Ke Apa Ke, Tolong Maafkan Yerr. Hehe. Terima Kaseh.