you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe


RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids. I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.

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My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.



Tuesday, August 26, 2008, 12:44 AM

hey babies..

sorry for my absence..
suddenly dun feel the thrill of bloggin anymore..

for the past few weeks, i've been thru so many shits.
still, there were moments where i felt contented and happy.
really dun understand myself..

i happen to just realise why people say love is blind..
one moment u can hate that person to the core..
especially when they're out of your sight.
but at the sight of him, ur heart softens..and all ur decisions that were made a while ago, seemed ludicrous and silly to you..

just at the very moment when i wanted to scream and shout, he made me laugh and smile.
and i'll forget that anythin ever happened on that day.

sometimes, like me , when ur so used to being hurt, such news seemed so normal to u.
like..what? again?
ohh when the hell are u gonna change?
and then i'd leave it at that.
cos sometimes, there's nothin much to say.
u'll just grow tired of it..

people ask me whether i've no feelings.
dun i have shame?
dun i have pride?
dun i love myself?
yak yak yak.
nag 24 hours a day.

but do u know how i feel?
have u ever been in my shoes?
yes, sometimes i do think.
i've pride. i could do better.
but i just can't say go.
how? tell me how?
not strong enough. never was and never will.

and now im about to lose this one friend who i used to have so much fun with.
i dunno why we can't talk things out.
i dunno why u have to ask in such a way.
we are all friends. we've been there for one another.
why dun u just admit ur mistake like i did?
i did it for the best.
i felt bad lying to her.
so? what did u expect?
i dunno why i give face all the time.
people say im too soft hearted, give in too easily.
yes, but how can i? i can never jeopardise a friendship.
friendship means so much to me.
i mean, i can forgive and talk things out nicely.
but i can never understand why my friends can't.

people tend to take me for granted.
yes i may seem strong, so the minah, blah blah blah.
watever u wanna call me.
but inside? everything's killin me..
noone knows..
cos i never complain..
and i never complain cos i know people dun wish to hear..
people dun care..
so why should i?

i've always placed everyone's needs above mine.
yet this is what they gave me in return.
thank you so very much.

oh wells.
i guess people will never understand.
we're too self centred.
i am too. i know.
but, there's a limit to everythin.
sometimes its just too much.

and sweetheart,
five more days..five more days baby..
a year ago, u placed that ring on my finger.
the happiest moment of my life..
may we celebrate this special day every followin year till i breathe my last.
i love you.
even though u caused so many painful moments, so many hurtful stuffs and so many lies.
u are still the one i've ever loved wholeheartedly my whole life, the father to my beautiful children and the man who made me whole.
thank q.

i love you.... i always will......

When There Is Love, There Is Forgiveness.