you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe


RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids. I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.

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My Life, My Joy, My Everything.
My Dearest,Most Sweetest Husband, Ramadhan.
My Beautiful Daughter, Nur Alesha Adriana. 23nov06.
My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.



Sunday, February 10, 2008, 8:42 PM

Hello. I just got back from baby's place. slept there fer four days. Hehes. Here's the long long update. *winks*

THURSDAY.

B messaged me at about 1.30pm claiming that he's still confined at camp and its his smoke break and that he will only be goin home at 4.30pm. We were busy messaging when at about 2.00pm, someone came knocking on my door. And to my surprise, its him! Hahaha. Bloody Ass. Always giving me this surprises. Orang dah la blom mandi. kakaka. so, i dressed, packed my stuffs, dressed ryan & off we went. Babygirl wasn't aroun cos she followed ma mum to a birthday party. She came later on. And so, we had a great day together at home. watching tv, resting and of cos, sleeping, kissing, hugging, cuddling, teasing & having fun. I gotta admit, we couldn't keep our hands off each other. Hahaha. Rinduuu oiii. Aniways, we only have four days. After this week, he'll book in and won't be home for three damn weeks. Oh baby. Im already missing you as i type this. Haizzz.

He then wanted to go to the zoo the next day, together with our dearest daughter. Of cos i said oke. Hehe. Da lama tak pegi with him.. Babyboy cannot laa follow. maseh kecik. vaccination pon baru dua. nanti kene apape penyakit ka susa. kesian dia kene tinggal. takpe da besar can ikot. hehe.

FRIDAY.

Woke up at about 9.30am. dressed, packed stuff and off we went. took 22 to amk and then 138. Reached there at about 1.30. So now u noe how long i take to get ready. LOL.

When we reach the zoo, i got the shock of my life. punye laa pack! i thought CNY there will be less chinese. Ni tak, sampai nak take pics also susah. haiyooo. So tiring. I hate crowds! Especially on a fucken hot day. Haha. But overall, i had a great day with my 2 precious ones. We still stayed all the way till 6.30. pictures below ey. (:

On the way back, some fucken banglas just pisses me off. We already queued for the fucken late bus. And when the bus came, they just push and squeeze like hell. Alamak! Aku da bawak budak. Aku siku jer siak. macam sial kan. abeh lagik nak cakap PODA PODA ngan aku. Tak macam sial? Hahas. Irritating morons.

On our way home, sis in law called and say ryan's milk has finished. And the best part is, when she called, its already time for his next feed. See? Im not being rude tau. but this is what always makes me so mad at my in laws. last minute. my son is already hungry and now then u call to inform us. dah laa CNY. most of the shops are closed. so we had to rush to imm since we are droppin at jurong east and buy it at giant. his milk can only be found at hypermarkets and ntuc as its a rare one. for babies with reflux. haizzz. thats the thing that makes it so difficult and frustrating. tell me would u be mad if u were me? and baby had to spend $20 on the cab fare from imm just to get home fast. dah laa gaji dia kecik. susu da $35. bayar ni bayar tuh lagik. hmmmms. watever. i shall stop here. im getting mad as i type this and remember everything.

When we finally reached home, poor ryan has already fallen asleep. obviously tired from crying. so we changed and eat. then baby pulak made me mad. real mad. he didn't tell me anything but then he tak pasal2 changed back and said he was gonna meet ayie and haqim for a while downstairs. he always does this! he will leave me alone with the kids. da la boring kat ruma dia. kalau my house its ok laa i have the comp to entertain me. over there? with his siblings and mum. at least at my place, i'll feel at home. i can do anything i want. haizzz. that is when i messaged u yanti. hahas. im really confused. thanks for the advice though. Luv ya!

Saturday

Spend the day at home watching him play ps. bored of cos. but what to do. he wants to rest before he book in. at night, we got into a huge fight i tell u. the night before when i was fucken pissed at him, i messaged adeq something stupid about guys. but that was just becos i was pissed at him. i didn't really mean it. And adeq replied on this day when he was holding my hp. siak. hahas. he was really pissed at me. he didn't want to talk to me. and when we were in separate rooms, i was with esha and he was with ryan..... he messaged me..he didn't wanna talk..

him : i hate you...
me : wateva. i noe u love me.
him : no. im heartbroken..don't wanna talk 2 u..
me : ala so kiyoot mrajuk. oke la. u dun love me but i love u. Can?
him : cn, bt u love me a lil but only..u tel yanti wat ur love for me is fading away...
( OH MY GOD YANTI! I DIDN"T KNOW HE READ THAT MSG. GUESS I FORGOT TO DELETE SENT ITEMS. HAIYOOO. LOL )
me : i dun get attention from u..i dun get what i want from u..wen i want to talk to u, u just buat bodo..how can my love stay the same? im lonely oke. but i still love u wat.
him : ok nw i know..its ok if u don't love me anymore. nvr mind.
me : i still love u laa.
( AFTER 10 MINUTES )
him : i love u..
me : i love u too. can't u just talk to me? why must msg? tak berg ey kalau jiwa2 depan2? *winks*
him : ape je u ni..malu..winks! hehe.

and then we had a great night together. everything da allright. had a great sleep. oke. i love him soooo much. he's always too shy to show his true feelings. but i noe he loves me alot. in fact, he loves me alot more than i love him. just that, pada dia, tak macho laa tunjuk2 prasaan jiwa2 nih seme. hehe. i love u baby.

SUNDAY

we both woke up at about 9.30. relax and stuffs. at about 12.30 we siap2 to go to his uncle's place for a kenduri. we brought esha along. after stayin here for about 2 hours, we went off home as b had to book in by 7.00. awwww. so sad oke. by 4, we reached home. we then spend our last 1 hour plus together just talking and teasing each other. he was really emotional. he knows that he couldnt bear the three week separation. i dunno why i wasn't as emotional. but i guess i will be later on. well, its already 10.30pm now and i am already starting to get emotional. these tears will just fall in a moment. hahas.

at about 5.30pm, he already had to go. i held his hand not wanting to let go, hugged him. exchanged i love yous and i miss yous. and off he went with a heavy heart. baby be strong. i'll be waiting for ur return. i love you. oke so now im gonna end this as my tears are already streaming down. haha. i'll update soon. gudnight everyone. cheeers!~ (':

BELOW ARE THE PICS AT THE ZOO. (: