you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe


RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids. I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.

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My Dearest,Most Sweetest Husband, Ramadhan.
My Beautiful Daughter, Nur Alesha Adriana. 23nov06.
My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.



Friday, January 11, 2008, 10:46 PM

hello everyone.
as usual, im waiting for him.
he called, at 7.42pm. and said, that he will be here after he finish eating and stuff.
and now, its 10.47. great liar ain't he? oh well. i know him too well laa.
what was i thinking when i thought he will change today?
i must be crazy. knowing what an idiot he is who wouldn't change at all, i still hoped he would.
who's the idiot now? hahahahahahahahaha. whatever. im just fed up fed up fed up.
sometimes i just feel like giving up and shutting up. just can't be bothered uhs.
such a fucking waste of time.

his sms are such bullshits.
guess what he messaged today? "pa takkan lambat cauze i miz u dear.."
oh fuck, just shut up laa. ur such a pain in my ass.
and im so fucked up with myself. cause i know, when ur finally here, my anger won't last long.
i give in too easily. im the idiot. waddehell. cause maybe baby, i just love you too much.
how you hug me after a few days of not meeting, it just melts me.
see? told cha i hated how much i love cha. haizzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz.

you know how special you are to me. your the only one who managed to remain in my heart after four years and after countless of obstacles. well, i know laa ur the one who kept the relationship going. even though i asked for a split so many times u still wanted it. but still, i managed to hold on. what is that if its not LOVE? hahahahahaha. there goes mushy mushy me.

ok whatever. im still gonna kill him for being late later. too much laa.
im seriously fed up already. might as well he just stay with his parents kan? alermak.

and im so tired today siaaaa. both buat hal. one stops, another starts. hahaha.
serves me right laa. but whatever. time will fly. and i'll be enjoying their moments together real soon. the love for them, is unexplainable.

i can't wait for confinement to end.
20th will be my last. but this time, i didn't feel confined laa. cos my son was in the hospital for three weeks kan. LOL. well this is the balance laa.
so after 20th, i'll try catching up with my babes. i love you all.

okie laa. just gotta rot and wait for him. the idiot. who else. hahahahaha.
goodnight. bye for now. xoxo.

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