you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe
RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids.
I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.
CUPCAKE(S) DROPPIN BY
My Life, My Joy, My Everything.
My Dearest,Most Sweetest Husband, Ramadhan.
My Beautiful Daughter, Nur Alesha Adriana. 23nov06.
My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.
Thursday, July 12, 2007, 10:32 PM
okey so, here's ekyn's request.the day my beautiful angel arrived.
ahaha.
siapa tak minat, berambus!
2 am in the mornin on 231106,
b called me.
chatted chatted and had a huge conflict.
told him i felt insecure,
that im afraid to get married to him later on cos i simply can't trust him.
i don't believe he can really commit himself.
i just had a bad feeling.
of course, he was mad. he knew it was his own fault that i simply lose trust in him.
yet, he really wanted to prove to me that he can commit to this reltionship.
and he will be there for me and our daughter.
we really had a heart to heart talk that day.
we hanged up at 4 am. i was really tired already.
after hanging up, tried to sleep but simply can't.
i only fell asleep about 30 minutes later.
at 5.30 am, had a stomachache.
i simply ignore it cos i thought it was a normal one and that it will go away soon.
and i was already really tired seys. it has only been an hour since i slept.
then, the pain got more and more severe. i was in so much pain.
woke my younger sis up and told her.
when the pain was becomin more unbearable, i took a bath, called mum at 7 am as she's working and woke dad up. called b. told him. he panicked. waddehell.
macam dia yang nak branak. kekeke.
at about 7.45 mum reached home and off we went to Mount. Alvernia Hospital.
i still could walk, thank god. LOL
entered the delivery room.
put on the stupid maternity thing which covers only the front.
with strings at the back.
i felt so naked sia. hahaha.
and so they checked me, and yes i was in labour.
waddehell. i couldn't believe i was gonna give birth sia.
i was nervous and scared but at the same time, excited.
mum came in and told me b has already reached.
i wanted so much to see him. i wanted him to be inside the room with me.
but too bad, not husband mah. but i have mum. i wanted her the most!
they then insert that stupid pill inside the anus.
untuk berak laa dulu sebelom branak.
nanti nga push terberak haiyoooo. kekeke.
the pain maken teruk okey.
the stupid gas inhalant doesn't even work sia.
decrease pain kepala otak dia!
and of cos, i was crying already.
so what. saket siaa. hahas.
i didn't want to take epidural cos i really wanted to feel the pain of birth.
da rasa kan, second one nanti epidural oi! cannot tahan. kakaka.
9 am, my doctor came.
he said i'll be giving birth around noon.
waddefuck! lama sia.
im suppose to bear the pain for 3 more hours?
OMG.
at about 12 noon, i was really in pain and really sleepy.
cos that inhalant thing causes drowsiness.
12.20, my cervix has open enough.
waited for the doctor to arrive.
3 full pushes, out she came. 1 more push and out came miss placenta.
the time? 12.43 pm.
fuuuh ! i was so relieved sia.
doc stitched me up while nurse cleaned her up.
few minutes later, she was in my arms.
awwww. couldn't believe she's mine.
we were then transferred to the normal ward.
i saw b and his eyes glowed when he saw her.
and he said, " remember that day, 2 years ago that u wanted to have my child? hehe"
so touching okey.
keke.
by that time i was so exhausted.
imagine urh..i only had an hour of sleep sia.
hahas.
okey like finally, im done.
normal delivery laa like other mums. no difference. hehe.
goddnight.