you were my eyes when i couldn't see
you were my air when i couldn't breathe
RiaSabrina/NanaCyber. Twenty. Married To My Teenage Sweetheart. Together For Almost Seven Years, Married For Nearly Four. Mum To Two Adorable Kids.
I Love Them To Death. They Are My Reason For Living.
CUPCAKE(S) DROPPIN BY
My Life, My Joy, My Everything.
My Dearest,Most Sweetest Husband, Ramadhan.
My Beautiful Daughter, Nur Alesha Adriana. 23nov06.
My Dashing Son, Muhammad Adryan Shah. 06dec07.
Tuesday, May 22, 2007, 11:51 PM
sayang,get well soon okeh.
i love u so much.
thank u for everythin that u have bought for me today.
so upset to see u sick knowing i can't be there for u 24/7.
im always here for u.
no matter how high u place your ayie above me now,
i still do love u, like i always do.
i know u prefer having him with u now.
im upset, that even wen your sick,
he took my place and was the first to be with you.
i used to be the one u always wanted to spend this moments with.
but now, it seems u want him instead of me.
i was happy just now.
acted happy actually, just for you.
deep down inside, u don't know how hurt i was.
it hurts to have someone who betrayed u taking my place.
i used to be the first, i used to be the one u wanted to be alone with,
i used to be the only one u told everything.
but now, it seems to be ayie ayie ayie.
i know u don't care.
but i hope u know, how much u mean to me.
and why i wanna be the first to your every needs.
and since u won't listen to me everytime we meet,
i know your gonna read this.
so let me tell u, since u don't need me anymore,
i have decided to let ayie have u to himself.
brothers right?allright then.
if u want somebody to accompany u, ask him.
cos i don't want to waste my time waking up early just to meet u and
see that he's with u.
if u are sick, make sure he takes care of u.
jiwe kan?okay then.
so make sure if anything goes wrong, he will be there.
the nearer we are to our big day, the furthur we are from each other.
doesn't it mean anything to u?
or, do i even mean anything to u?
i tried to be as understanding as i can.
but this is just too much.
im sick of trying to act happy everytime i see u with him.
im sick trying to be interested to know what happened
wenever u guys are out together.
i miss us.
just the two of us.
hanging out, spending time and just have fun.
i miss the moments wen u only wanted to be with me.
no calls or sms from anyone else.
since he came back, i feel so lonely.
and u don't even care wenever i try to tell u how i feel.
at least i can tell my problems to ayie.
he listens.
but you.
everything seems to be a joke.
thats why i don't tell u what i feel anymore.
and u will blame me and say its my fault cos i didnt tell u.
u don't even bother to make me feel better.
u are perfect for me sayang.
just that, u do place ur friends above me.
but u just don't realise that.
i know u love me as much as i love u.
or even more.
prove it to me.
cos sometimes when i think back,
i don't think u even love me at all.
get well soon sayang.
see u on saturday.
................................
its 12 am.
my princess is 6 month old today.
she's the one who makes me laugh durin my lonely moments.
that is why i just love u more.
nur alesha adriana.
i love u so much.
goodnight everyone.